I’m still recovering from a week in West Cork at constellations training and an upper respiratory infection that is lingering.
Instead of writing about all I learned, I’m honoring where I am, the healing process, and integration.
I’m proud of myself for being open and all-in for this process, the shadow work, and the realization that I don’t have a clue most of the time.
The biggest things I learned in groups, at my 4:30AM processing sessions in bed, and on my walks over the wild green hills near Bantry Bay:
I have a lot of stories and ways of avoiding reality.
I still disassociate quite often.
Denial still runs strong in me.
Guilt is quite efficient and effective at stopping the flow of life and everything in support of it.
Life is a dance with grief.
What you do not observe within yourself or your energy causes grief for yourself and others.
It takes practice, courage, a safe place, and others to heal.
It’s less about telling yourself a different story and more about accepting what is.
My life was designed for me to live and heal.
I still love cows and sheep!
I am resourceful, creative, and enough where I am at every stage. I have been unable to receive life and anything in support of it for a very long time. I’m not some amazing human, leader, healer, or writer, and I am.
My destiny is to receive my healing, to appreciate this process, and to allow the flow of life to me and from me. It’s enough. It’s everything to me and everything the world needs.
The three things I’m giving and receiving for myself now are:
Protection of myself, my time, and my energy while I am changing, releasing, and accepting healing;
A willingness to accept what has been and let go of identities, processes, lifestyles, relationships, and stories that do not serve me or life; and
A vision, perspective, and honoring of the possibility to heal to be more whole and present—the possibility of becoming.
Love from Ireland,
Cathleen,
P.S. Do you have a book in your heart, but are unsure how to write it? Connect with me and let’s bring it into the world (1:1 Coaching).